The “Unknown”
I have two more finals for my freshman year. I’ll be home free by noon tomorrow! :)
It’s incredible to think that I have already been here at Covenant for a whole year. So much has changed… I’ve changed. Another five more days, and I will actually be back home. And then another four months down the road, I’ll be starting my sophomore year of college.
If I were to sum everything I have learned since the start of my freshman year here at Covenant and put it into one word, it would be something along the lines of “trust” or “patience” or “faith” or “reliance.” I don’t think I have ever had to rely more fully on God for my future than I have this past year… and I am continuing to have to lean on God during this time of my life. It’s a scary thing not knowing what’s going to happen with a relationship, or a career, or a major, or even a simple college course. It seems like anything minutely small could turn the tables and send you into the “unknown.”
It’s hard to watch friends disappear from your life, wondering whether you’ll see them again next year or even ever. I’ve lost count of how many times I have just sat down and broken into tears the last week… simply not knowing where God was leading me. It’s hard to not know where the money for college is going to come from. I called my parents just last night and told them that I didn’t think I was going to have enough money to pay for my sophomore year at Covenant… that’s hard.
I read a few verses in Romans yesterday morning, and I am beginning to learn and understand the power of prayer in every and all circumstances. A friend of mine always talks about sitting at the foot of the cross and bathing all of her cares and concerns in prayer. I never really understood that, but I am coming to realize the utter beauty in that picture. The reality is that life is a struggle, a hardship, and oftentimes an incredibly long road… but knowing that we can literally “bathe” our lives in prayer at the foot of the cross of Christ is a beautiful thing. I have barely scratched the surface of what that means… and even more so of what that looks like in my own personal walk with Christ. But let me share a few verses from Romans that might explain a little better from the words of Paul what it means to “bathe” your life in prayer, trust, and reliance on Him.
Romans 1:8-10, “First, I thank my God through Jesus Christ for all of you, because your faith is being reported all over the world. God, whom I serve with my whole heart in preaching the gospel of his Son, is my witness how constantly I remember you in my prayers at all times; and I pray that now at last by God’s will the way may be opened for me to come to you.”
Published on 1 May 2007 at 8:07 am.
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